Final Reflection
I haven't done as much this semester as I wanted. I didn't achieve the grades that I aimed for. I didn't do any of the things I proposed I'd do at the start. But I grew as a person. I grew as a writer. I grew as a human being. I opened my mind to things I never knew even existed.
When I started this semester, I didn't have a future. I didn't have a loving boyfriend that wanted to marry me. I didn't have a set time where I wanted to finish school. I just floated along and took it slow and steady. My head was in the clouds and I had no direction.
Then everything changed when the Fire Nation attaked.
My best friend told me that he wanted to marry me. Happily, we decided we'd wed when I finished school. I fell from cloud 9 and smacked into the ground. 'I want to marry him so much. I've been dreaming about it since I met him. Now it's crunchtime.'
'I need to understand everything in all my classes at that moment and I need to quick get my degree so I can start my life.'
This is what I kept telling myself, and I took matters into my own hands. I realized that I wasn't relying on the Lord and I wasn't doing what He wanted in my life. I know He wants my boyfriend and I together, but that doesn't mean that the way I was going about it was the correct way.
I began to have really bad writer's block. I couldn't read, I couldn't write, and my grades in my other class were decreasing. I would recieve 90s and 100s, but then I started getting high 80s and I wanted to scream.
There comes a time in each of our lives, when we come to the end of ourselves. I hit that point mid-semester, and gave up everything. I gave every bad thought I had, every feeling of failure, and I said "Lord help me, I can't do this by myself. I need you." I shut the Christian fiction book I was attempting to read, and I started anew.
Then everything clicked. I began understanding the forms, and the registers, and I was happier in my work. I let my spirit guide me in all of my writing, and my good grades returned. Now that the semester is coming to an end, I am pleased to say that although I didn't do anything I set out to do, and my plans changed drastically, I still came out as a different person and I now have experiences that will help me in my future courses.
I loved this class and I will reccomend it to everyone interested in Writing Arts. It's such a great class, designed to get you thinking beyond what you already know. Dr. Kopp is a phenominal professor and he makes the learning environment fun and exciting. As long as you're true to yourself and accept that you may not always be right, you'll do well.
Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night! Enjoy the holidays!!!